Time to De-Clutter!

Have you ever felt like you had so much that you had to do, that all these thoughts start running through your head as if you're actually going to start doing the things that you need to do but it's so much stuff that you don't know where to start so you end up putting things off until another day and the stuff just piles up??? Whew! That was a run-on sentence on purpose because I wanted to express how I actually feel mentally right now. I've been in this space (mentally) for some months. I'm exhausted, overwhelmed and admittedly a little cranky. I have this picture in my mind of how I want things to be but it's not getting there fast enough so I begin to worry. Thinking about all these things that could go wrong. Thinking how messed up my future is going to look before I even get there. Oh, can I add anxiety to my list of negative emotions? Consequently, the clutter in my mind has spilled over into clutter in my living space and it's driving me crazy! I just feel so drained.

Ok, so you may be thinking "she's just hormonal because she's pregnant." Which may be the case, but I think there is more to it.

You see, last year when I was taking my group counseling class, I realized that I'm somewhat of a perfectionist when one of my classmates was describing perfectionism as one of her issues that she would like to work on and during that time I was thinking "Oh my gosh! That's me!" So I think that with all of this "newness" in my life, my perfectionism wants to go into overdrive. Everything has to be perfect and the way that I want it to be. I want to have control over the things that are happening or going to happen in my life!

Oh, but wait...that's not how life works, now does it?

I also realized that I have spent a lot of time worrying and not more time praying. It's so easy to get distracted and forget that my Father misses me and wants to spend time with me. I have to be intentional about making time for him just like I make sure I eat food everyday. I can't forget that He is the one who helped me get through tough times in the past and brought me to where I am today. I see it as my responsibility to make sure that He is #1 priority in my life, whether things are going good or bad!

Simply Melley